Forgetting!!!!!!!!

Over the last few days ive had to face up to some things from my past that id buried to the back of my mind so i cud forget about it..... but completely unexpectedly it was starin me right in the face again and i couldnt avoid it anymore. So the last couple of days have been really tough and ive had to make a difficult desician. " Just forget and move on". I cant change the past so wot is the point in lettin it rule the present.

It all started on wednesday. something happened that made me remember those things from the past .. But i dont think it was by accident. I think God had planned it.. At the moment it is hard for me to admit that this was all Gods plan cuz my walk with God has sidetracked lately, but i really do believe it was him. I think God is workin with me to move on with my life and sortin out one issue at a time. I dont think this is the only time i am gonna be goin through a transition like this.

So for the past two days i have been goin over everything in my head, it was really painful and frustratin cuz i couldnt think about anything else, i couldnt focus on anything except from this.
But then i woke up this mornin with a sense of peace that i havent felt in a long time. and there was this feelin on my heart that the past is the past and i have to leave it there... I feel so much better and i know that it doesnt matter, cuz im not even the same person i was all those years ago and ive come so far.

I think God knew that the only way i cud forget about this thing from the past was to tell somebody.. Ive had a secret from the world that ive kept until wednesday, and it was probably eatin away at me for all these years without me even realising it. But when i told darren on wednesday a transition in my life was begginning.

Even though im not tellin you wot that secret is, and i probably never will, i cant believe i am actually talkin about it like this, and i cant believe i told darren on wednesday but doin that has probably been one of the best things i cudve done to move on.

I suppose the moral of this is that you cant change your past so forget it, and however bad something seems if u just tell someone it will make it seem so much better. Dont keep things bottled up like i did.

I hope this can help someone readin this, and im sure this can help someone down the line... its just another chapter to my testimony,